Sit back and relax. The blackout curtains are drawn, and the fan is blowing a welcome breeze. This SEP will take a look into my world, and the world around me. It is meant to give me an outlet for things that have been taking up space in my mind for months now.
In recent months I have discovered that things I thought I would never do I fully intend to do. It has taken years to come to the current realizations. It has not always been clear why things were happening but right now the reasons could not be clearer. Indulge me for a few minutes and you will see what I am talking about. The journey has been a strange one but I have figured a few things out along the way.
2019 is bringing more changes that we've had in a long time. The result is nostalgia, and I'm searching through old posts to decide what to keep and what to remove from the world's view entirely. The two of use are settling into a routine that is rather easy to enjoy since we're the only ones we answer to.
I found a post from May 5, 2012 while looking through previous blogs and decided to share it with a few updates on everything. You will have to use your imagination should I not include updates. The original post, along with different color notes and updates follows:
Recent events have shown me that I should follow my own instincts. I am not claiming clairvoyance merely the ability to know when something is not right, and that I should stop ignoring that instinct once and for all.
Response to Being Provoked.
I moved home, and with that move came new neighbors. It seems that when I'm not sure about people I should observe from a distance instead I discovered that when I don't trust my first impression I am wrong.
It is funny to me how men will claim to be faithful to their wives, and not be faithful. It is funny how people will claim to be secure and not be secure at all, they will use you as much as they can before they throw you away. It is also amusing to me how people imagine things where none existed.
In the process of building this website I began moving posts for three previous blogs. It is taking a great deal of time and patience, but progress is being made. I began the process years ago, but scraped everything for some forgotten reason.
I am finally going through with it from start to finish, thanks to some encouragement from a friend that asked why I could simply move everything if I could continue to write on a format that wasn't working.
What am I hoping to accomplish? I hope to accomplish the completion of something that I have been thinking about doing for years. Increasing my income and drawing attention to my work would be a bonus. Return to being more organized for both work and home life.
What is my plan for accomplishing these things? Very slowly. It is good to take it slow so that I can edit, rewrite and scrap things that do not fit into this venue.
How am I going to move years of my life into a different venue? Very carefully, leaving out the rants that had no place being published to start with.
What will I learn from this experience? I will not have this answer until much later.
Looking back at Misery: There are several things that will not move because they are not suitable anymore. They are also rants, and they have no actual place in intelligent dialogue. I am trying to move forward, while I have to process all the negative it doesn't mean I cannot keep up with the positive.
Yes, you read that right. It has taken me two years to finish reading a book start to finish without starting the book over. Which book is it? Nathaniel Hawthorne's The Scarlett Letter. Yes I began reading it during the beginning of summer 2016 and just finished it today.
2018 has begun rather interestingly. I am not sure where the time has gone but my youngest child is now eleven years old, the oldest eighteen and preparing for college. As most of you know the youngest is autistic which makes for interesting days, she is becoming more independent so she's acting more like a teenager than a child at this point.
I discovered over the last few months that some things are meant to be, and some end because you know the situation is not right for you. It is easy once you realize that you can do better without the things in your life that are hindering you from achieving what you want to achieve.
Things are always happening in life, some good and some bad. You take it as it comes, let go of little things and move on. That's what you're told to do anyway. What happens when it is the little things that hurt you the most?